Being happy with who I am

I'm terrible at counselling, at teaching, at giving verbal instructions, and basically anything that requires me to think heavily on my feet and not at my desk.

Give me something to manage and I'll gladly do it, yet I'm nowhere near a good leader.

I am someone who loves administration, silly and useless as it may be to some. I laugh at the man-made problems bureaucracy creates, yet I enjoy listening to these problems and I'm learning to sort between what's important and what's not.

I can't stand analysing words and processes, but numbers I'll analyse any day.

For the past months, maybe years, I have been upset with myself for not being able to do the things that people I look up to can do, yet I am lousy at. The world seems to be looking for people who can do what I can't. A friend who can listen and advise, a consultant to streamline processes, etc. Who really needs a leader who can't inspire or a fantastic book-keeper?

Once again, today, while I was being upset with myself while walking back home, I was reminded that God created each one of us different and unique. These things I can't do, because of my upbringing or my innate personality, were all within His plan. He had a reason for making me not the same as "everyone else", or at least the type of person I was thinking about. And with who He made me to be, He had a purpose for me.

So I told myself, even if my purpose is to be useful to just that 1 person in the world, I'll just faithfully keep to it. And I know that at least 1 person treasures what I think and finds what I say genuinely useful :)

At the end of the day, there are always things that I can learn to improve myself, but well, I shouldn't get too hard up if I take a longer time to catch it, as long as I continue to learn and grow each day!